I sorta kinda have a date with Maybe tomorrow. We are going down to a festival/carnival here in the city with M and Brian, so I guess it’s a double kinda sorta date. There is really only one way for me to put this. I am nervous and don’t want to go. Why you ask? Because I have this huge feeling in the pit of my stomach (and also in the pit of my self doubt center) that he is going to stand me up. This is because RB has really soured things for me on the relationship front and another “man” named Mat stood me up two times in a row last month, and they weren’t even dates!
Also, I am nervous because I haven’t been on a first date in what feels like a lifetime. What do I wear? What do I say? What do I do? Do I give him a kiss on the cheek at the end of the night? A kiss on the lips? A hug? A handshake? Do all of the “normal” rules still apply since I have already slept with him? I AM FREAKING OUT HERE PEOPLE.
Sometimes I wish I was a stick bug or a daffodil so I wouldn’t have to deal with this crap.